I have often asked myself if I think I am getting Mono or if I am just fill in the blank (sad, lonely, lazy, sleepy)? I do this because one year after Christmas when I was still high school, my sister left to go back to college and I sat around for two days and moped (not to be confused with a mo-ped) and slept and slept and moped. I just wasn't myself and I didn't know what was wrong. It was so bad that Mom took me to be tested for mono. It was positive and there we had our answer.
I think about that every year when my sister leaves to go home after Christmas break. The house feels so empty without her and Shortcake. Her absence makes me want to stay in PJs, watch TV, and snooze on and off all day (not that I don't do exactly that while she is here, too...it's just different). So sometimes I think that's what I'll do. I'll mope and sleep and sleep and mope and blame it on mono.
Beth left today. I actually left the house for lunch with Sarah but then I came home and curled up in a blanket and watched TV and napped to mourn her absence. I know that sounds kind or morbid, and I don't mean it to be. I know she is okay (I just talked to her, she just made it back to Florida safely) and I know that I will be okay too, but I like to give myself a little bit of time to be sad because I will most likely not see my sister again until May. For just a little while over Christmas break I am reminded that we used to live in the same house and we used to do our own things but at night we had dinner at the same table and slept under the same roof. So, when she returns to Florida and I am still at home for a few days I have more nostalgia for childhood than usual.
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